From Rachel Toor
As an undergrad, suffering from the knowledge that someone had messed up and let me in feeling not as prepared as my prep school classmates, I learned how to talk about books I hadn’t read. Usually with condescension and searing critique.
It took me years decades to unlearn that “skill.”
After college, I worked at Oxford University Press. I learned that editors are not gatekeepers, but fans. They have to say no to most projects, but they live to say yes. This fit better with my uncool propensity for enthusiasm.
On the other side of the pond, however, at the university to which we ostensibly reported, the British staff viewed smug cleverness as a virtue. They were embarrassed by gushy American earnestness.
Those are the poles I’ve always swung between. Cheap snark versus authentic emotion.
While I am drawn to the sardonic and the darkly funny, the quality I think most excellent writers share is empathy. While working on my first young adult novel, I taped this quote from the (rugged) Jim Harrison above my computer:
“I like grit, I like love and death, I'm tired of irony … A lot of good fiction is sentimental … The novelist who refuses sentiment refuses the full spectrum of human behavior, and then he just dries up … I would rather give full vent to all human loves and disappointments, and take a chance on being corny, than die a smartass.”
Of course, I fear my lesser angels often get the better of me and I can’t resist a smartass crack.
What has helped, though, is talking to presidents, especially those who are true believers. Who take a chance on being corny and resist an urge toward sarcastic glibness. Who thrill to dress up in wizard-like robes and confer degrees. Who choose to create, or at least, caretake, rather than to destroy. Who are not gatekeepers of higher ed, but fans.
I wish faculty, particularly the haters who believe that administrators are motivated only by power, prestige, and filthy lucre, could overhear the way presidents talk when no one (except me) is listening.
Embracing my slobbery fandom, I will say this: These people inspire the shit out of me. They give me hope for higher ed. And to quote a Jack Nicholson character, they make me want to be a better [hu]man.
If you're going to be at the APLU meeting next month, drop me a line. We want to see you in person. (I promise to try not to slobbber.)